Thursday, December 31, 2009

Heaven can wait..


Heaven can wait
and hell's too far to go
somewhere between what you need
and what you know..


[Charlotte Gainsbourg]

Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Wisdom from Leonardo da Vinci

„I love those who can smile in trouble, who can gather strength from distress, and grow brave by reflection. 'Tis the business of little minds to shrink, but they whose heart is firm, and whose conscience approves their conduct, will pursue their principles 
unto death.“

[Leonardo da Vinci]

Monday, December 28, 2009

In this Dark Hour..

In this Dark Hour...

In this dark hour..
will you lie next to me
or will you leave an empty bed?

In this dark hour..
will you come and rescue me
or will you let me drown?

In this dark hour..
will you stand by me
or will you side with my enemies?

In this dark hour..

[From Poems of a „Tortured Mind“ by Roman Beljajev/Роман Беляев; Copyright © 1929 Роман Беляев]

Sunday, December 27, 2009

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

„Ruminations of a Confused Soul“ by Roman Beljajev


Polina put her head in her hands and moved closer to the fireplace. The living room still felt a bit chilly in the snowy weather conditions that reigned outside. And she was in desperate need for some warmth. The flames from the fireplace glimmered in her eyes while she was pondering on the conversation she was having with her grandmother Jekatarina Aleksandrovna.

Jekatarina, now in her early seventies, was still a pretty if now a somewhat portly figure and Polina‘s closest confidante. She was what one would consider a seasoned person who has weathered and survived a few storms in her own life. Jekatarina had her fair share of blows of fate, having buried both her husband and one of her daughters in a tragic incident while the daughter was still an infant.

Jekatarina stood up from her rocking chair in the corner of the living room and towered over Polina.

„You have to give Maksim some time; he will come back once he has come to terms with his own feelings“, Jekatarina uttered while Polina did not look up from the fire. The flames were still playing hide-and-seek in her eyes while the wood in the fireplace made a fitting cracking noise.

„You have been trying to make too many people happy at the same time. And that‘s when you became unhappy yourself.“ Jekatarina changed her position and was now looking directly at Polina.

„I know that you love Maksim. But you will make him unhappy too and turn him into a miserable man if you are trying to take everybody‘s needs and demands into account in what you are doing. Why is it more important to you to bow to your friends‘ demands on you than to be loyal to the man you love?“

Jekatarina was shifting her position slightly and was now facing the window.

„I know that you are a good hearted soul and that you don‘t want to hurt anybody. But now is the time to be selfish. Otherwise you might hurt the person you love most and did not want to hurt in the first place.“

At that moment Polina loosened her stare into the fire and looked up at her grandmother.


[Excerpt from the „Ruminations of a Confused Soul“ by Roman Beljajev/Роман Беляев; Copyright © 1924 Роман Беляев]

Sunday, December 20, 2009

Let it sleep

Let It Sleep [Goltvenko/Schober]

Capo III

[Fm IV | Bb IX| Cm XI| Eb IX]

[Intro 2x]

Let it sleep
Let‘s cover it up
Don‘t explain
I will not explain

Let it sleep
Let the snow wipe it out
Just forget
I will forget

[G# VII]
Let it sleep
[G7sus4 VI] [G7sus4: 686866]
Let it sleep

[BRIDGE: Cm | Eb | G# | G7sus4]

Let it sleep
Let‘s put a veil over
Shut up
I will shut up

Let it sleep
Let the fog conceal it
Fade away
I will fade away

Let it sleep
Let it sleep

[20 XII 2009]